What does happiness really look like?
Have you ever stopped to think about it? Really think about it.
There were so many years that I said, I just want to be happy. Not that I considered myself to be unhappy, but in general I was open to receiving more happiness. I was perfectly content with whatever level of happiness life chose to deliver to me. I was totally satisfied living unconsciously. I never realized there was an alternative so there wasn’t much to be unhappy about.
I notice during that time I had not learned the lesson of intention.
I was living my life and allowing it to happen to me. Grazing through my world of materialism happy with mediocrity. I didn’t put intention into any of the important things. My intention was focused on my career, the attainment of status, and acquisition of material wealth. I had a nice house. I had a nice car. I had a nice life. But at the end of the day I found myself exhausted—completely exhausted, both mentally and physically.
So I would zone out in front of the TV for marathons that would last up to three days every weekend.
I spent my “free” time zombified and my “work” time looking forward to my “free” time.
It never occurred to me that I had a choice here. I’m a perfectly intelligent human being with street smarts and yet it still never occurred to me that I had a choice in how my life was designed.